Wii Fit Challenge

I have serious issues doing things. I'm great at planning, but the actual execution part I have issues.

I'm kind of a naysayer and I'm really hard on myself. Like I should get in trouble for bullying... myself.

I really do have goals and hopes and I try to do things...

Do or Do Not, There is No Try.

I need to really work on my discipline and I have serious issues with going to the gym. I work out when I get to the gym, I just can't seem to physically get myself to the gym.

So I set up the Wii today and issues myself a challenge. Every day just play the WiiFit. Even if it's only to weight myself and take a fitness test. I need to just take care of myself and be healthy. I got the WiiFit set up, did my fitness test, and my results were less than stellar. I already knew that I have to pour myself into my jeans and then make sure I don't sit down in them. Or breathe. I can't say I was surprised.

I'm planning on checking in periodically to see how close I am to my goals. I want to lose 10lbs in two months. I want to not be depressed anymore. It's really tiring being depressed, and I really feel like if I could just start exercising more I'd feel better. So here goes again. To working out... like I mean it.

Do or do not. There is no try.

Jill of All Trades

I've always tried to be a Jill of all trades. I figured that I would be the most useful by knowing many skills. I'm pretty sure my fixation with being 'of use' stems from my reading The Cider House Rules by John Irving when I was in high school.

Homer, the title character is always trying to be 'of use' and uses that as much of his driving force in the novel. The major difference between Homer and I  is that he was an expert at a few things, and I'm not an expert at anything. (I am great at trivia so I know I'm super smart. lol)

I have a lot of skills, but I always seem to get just far enough so that I can muddle through projects. I never dive deeper. Perhaps it's my fear of failure that stops me, but I feel like it's getting in the way with being the most productive person I can be.

The biggest problem is that I just don't know what exactly I want to spend copious amounts of time doing. Do I want to become a better piano player? Absolutely, yes! But I have to work for it. I'd have to play my scales... I'd have to work rather than just have fun playing my pop tunes.

Do I want to become better at knitting and crochet? You betcha! But I need to get size 8 needles and don't have a coupon.

I'm just too good at making excuses for why I can't do something rather than just doing it.

Is it a lack of passion or motivation?

I've been so bored lately, but I know it's because I'm just not keeping myself busy enough. There are lots of things I could do but I don't want to. I don't even know what I want to do!

Will I ever?

All I know is that I have the love of a good man, a comfy home, good food, and really couldn't ask for anything else. That's enough for me for the moment. Sooner or later I'll find my calling... whatever it may be.